We are days away from our return visit to India. The journey getting here this year has been less difficult. We did not have to change gears quite as much this time. We have decided to take Lane. That fact thrills me and makes me want to throw up all at the same time. I bounce between excitement that he gets to do this with us and "What the heck were we thinking". I am really excited that he gets this opportunity at such a young age. Scott and I will never be the same after last trip, so we are hoping that maybe it will change the way Lane sees the whole world. It is really hard to come home and think that this is all there is. That the world revolves around you. Because, Clearly, it does not and there is so much more. As we have been thinking over last trip and trying to process some of the things we have seen, we have come to the conclusion that there is no answer for some things. Some of life does not have an answer.
It is as if I am walking around with a question in my hand and have no place to put it down. ie) why do they do that? I thought human nature was like this? What, how... did you see that monkey on the power pole?
So much of life is lived outside of my home. So much hurt and evil has been going on for far too long. It says in the book of James, that if you know the good you ought to do and don't do it, it is sin for you. So there you have it. We have left people we have grown to love on the other side of the earth. We have heard their heartbreaking stories and can no longer turn a deaf ear or look away. We have nothing to give but our small amount of help, our breaking heart and our love. We really hope to encourage, but are inadequate. We really hope to help, but are inadequate. We really hope to show God's love, He is adequate. When we are weak he is strong. And it is with these thoughts and promises we turn around and subject ourselves to 18 hours of flights. We will go, and trust God to do the rest.
It is as if I am walking around with a question in my hand and have no place to put it down. ie) why do they do that? I thought human nature was like this? What, how... did you see that monkey on the power pole?
So much of life is lived outside of my home. So much hurt and evil has been going on for far too long. It says in the book of James, that if you know the good you ought to do and don't do it, it is sin for you. So there you have it. We have left people we have grown to love on the other side of the earth. We have heard their heartbreaking stories and can no longer turn a deaf ear or look away. We have nothing to give but our small amount of help, our breaking heart and our love. We really hope to encourage, but are inadequate. We really hope to help, but are inadequate. We really hope to show God's love, He is adequate. When we are weak he is strong. And it is with these thoughts and promises we turn around and subject ourselves to 18 hours of flights. We will go, and trust God to do the rest.
